I really struggled with what to write for this post. I stared at my computer screen, trying to find the words to say whatever it was I needed to say. Ultimately nothing came out and I went to bed.
Lately I’ve found myself in a slump, you could say. The past month has just been kind of rough. I find myself having more off days than good and having a harder time finding joy in the little things. I think it’s a combination of things. Last month was my birthday, it was the one year anniversary of my mom passing away (she passed away days after my birthday in 2016), now it’s my Mom’s birthday. I know it’s alright to be sad, it’s natural, but I know that my mom wouldn’t want me to be a gloomy mess all the time.
Right now I feel like I’m only dwelling on the past instead of enjoying the present. While I of course want to and will continue to remember all of the wonderful times I shared with my mom, I don’t want to be sad when I reflect on those moments. I want to look back with happiness in my heart and then enjoy what’s going on currently.
As I said, it’s been a rough month but that’s alright. I’m going to put more effort into recognizing the little moments of beauty everyday. I want to show my friends and family that I care. Being sad is normal but I don’t want it to be the only thing I am.
That’s where I am right now. Life is business as usual and I’m doing all I can to stay positive and happy. What’s new with you?
I spent my weekend at Emerald City Comicon with Fletch. We walked around, did some shopping, and got to see a ton of awesome people. The weekend had me reflecting on my purpose. See, at comicon I saw a ton of people selling their art and following, what seems to be, their passion. I’m nearly 30 and I still don’t really know what it is I’m supposed to be doing.
Then again, maybe I don’t need to find purpose in a job.
I’m doing a pretty good job at having a life while also working. I blog, I make time for friends and family, and I make sure to make time for me. I do my best to make others feel loved, appreciated, encouraged, and supported. All of that brings me great joy. What I need to do is learn to be happy with where I am in life but also work consistently towards figuring out what else I’d like to do with my time.
I’m happy with where I am in life right now but I know how important it is to continue to grow. I’d like to do more for others, maybe volunteer. Who knows what the future will bring me. Regardless of what comes my way I know that I will always find joy in the little joys of life and always strive to make this world a better place.
This weekend I turned 28 and spent most of my weekend with Fletch. It was absolutely wonderful. He was so incredibly sweet. We started our Saturday with opening my birthday presents. It was a pretty great way to start, if I do say so myself. Fletch is so thoughtful and always finds the best gifts. We spent the rest of the day together doing whatever I wanted.
I want to give a little shout-out to my amazing partner, Fletch, because he went above and beyond this weekend. This was a difficult time. It was my first birthday without my mom. My last memory of my mom is from my birthday last year. My Dad Facetimed me from my mom’s hospital room. He stood by her as she lay there, propped up in her hospital bed as they sang Happy Birthday to me. She passed away days later. So, my birthday not only reminds me of my last memory of her but also that the anniversary of her passing is coming up. You can imagine that must be difficult.
The day was hard, I spent most of the day in good spirits, all due to the work of Fletch. He kept me busy, took me to do whatever I wanted, and treated me like a queen. I have no idea how I got so lucky to have him in my life. He is not only my partner but my best friend. Fletch is an amazing individual who always puts others before himself. Right now, as I write this, he is in his office working. He’ll stay up late finishing up things because he spent the whole weekend doing whatever I wanted.
I love that man so much.
I’ve been thinking a lot about this idea of work/life balance recently. I feel like the workplace environment can be so competitive that having a balance between work and life is really difficult. For me, finding work/life balance means, usually, that both fill up equal amount of time. I go to work at 7:30am and I come home at 4pm, Monday through Friday. From time-to-time work takes up more hours in the day and from time-to-time life takes up more time. The problem with most work situations is that you’re encouraged to come in early or stay late. If you come in and leave at the same time you aren’t viewed as driven or dedicated. I personally think that’s BS.
I hope you had a wonderful weekend. I sure did! I spent Saturday hanging out with some of my super-awesome blogger friends for a Galentine’s celebration. Sunday I had the most scrumptious lunch with my incredible friends, Cate and Luke. I’m so glad I had a chance to spend time with such lovely people.
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how to get the highest quality out of life and I’ve come to a realization. The things we remember in the end aren’t how many cars we had or how big our closet was, it will be the people we spent time with. The moments we cherished each and every day.