This weekend I spent quality time with Fletch, which was wonderful. While out with Fletch I visited a cafe I haven’t been to in months. I used to frequent the establishment when I worked at my last job and haven’t been back since I left. While there the owner asked why I was so dressed up. I replied with, “this is how I dress”. This little interaction got me thinking about style. I don’t dress like a lot of my friends in my immediate vicinity. That’s not a bad thing. I love the way I dress. My cute dresses make me happy. My pins lighten my spirit. My adorable accessories bring me joy. So who cares if I don’t dress like everyone else?
This weekend one of my favorite Disney movies was released as a live-action film. As you probably know I’m talking about Beauty and the Beast. Belle was one of the first Disney princesses whom I connected with. She was intelligent, focused on more than just finding her one true love. She was different and I liked that.
Of course I then began thinking about enjoying things made for kids. You probably know this by now but I’m a firm believer in holding onto that kid inside of you. I love toys, animated movies, and most other things that are made for children. I learned from my mom the importance of always holding onto your child-like wonder with the world. Enjoy toys and games. Laugh as often as you can. Be kind and help others. I don’t know what it is about growing up but I feel like as we age we’re taught to only look out for ourselves. We ask how something or someone will help us. How will our lives be improved? While kids just want to have fun and be happy.
So yeah. I’m holding onto that little kid inside that used to wear a handmade cowboy hat. I’m holding onto the Littlest-Pet-Shop-collecting, jelly-shoe-wearing kid that used to love playing in the mud and matching color with color.
How about you?
I really struggled with what to write for this post. I stared at my computer screen, trying to find the words to say whatever it was I needed to say. Ultimately nothing came out and I went to bed.
Lately I’ve found myself in a slump, you could say. The past month has just been kind of rough. I find myself having more off days than good and having a harder time finding joy in the little things. I think it’s a combination of things. Last month was my birthday, it was the one year anniversary of my mom passing away (she passed away days after my birthday in 2016), now it’s my Mom’s birthday. I know it’s alright to be sad, it’s natural, but I know that my mom wouldn’t want me to be a gloomy mess all the time.
Right now I feel like I’m only dwelling on the past instead of enjoying the present. While I of course want to and will continue to remember all of the wonderful times I shared with my mom, I don’t want to be sad when I reflect on those moments. I want to look back with happiness in my heart and then enjoy what’s going on currently.
As I said, it’s been a rough month but that’s alright. I’m going to put more effort into recognizing the little moments of beauty everyday. I want to show my friends and family that I care. Being sad is normal but I don’t want it to be the only thing I am.
That’s where I am right now. Life is business as usual and I’m doing all I can to stay positive and happy. What’s new with you?
I spent my weekend at Emerald City Comicon with Fletch. We walked around, did some shopping, and got to see a ton of awesome people. The weekend had me reflecting on my purpose. See, at comicon I saw a ton of people selling their art and following, what seems to be, their passion. I’m nearly 30 and I still don’t really know what it is I’m supposed to be doing.
Then again, maybe I don’t need to find purpose in a job.
I’m doing a pretty good job at having a life while also working. I blog, I make time for friends and family, and I make sure to make time for me. I do my best to make others feel loved, appreciated, encouraged, and supported. All of that brings me great joy. What I need to do is learn to be happy with where I am in life but also work consistently towards figuring out what else I’d like to do with my time.
I’m happy with where I am in life right now but I know how important it is to continue to grow. I’d like to do more for others, maybe volunteer. Who knows what the future will bring me. Regardless of what comes my way I know that I will always find joy in the little joys of life and always strive to make this world a better place.
This weekend I turned 28 and spent most of my weekend with Fletch. It was absolutely wonderful. He was so incredibly sweet. We started our Saturday with opening my birthday presents. It was a pretty great way to start, if I do say so myself. Fletch is so thoughtful and always finds the best gifts. We spent the rest of the day together doing whatever I wanted.
I want to give a little shout-out to my amazing partner, Fletch, because he went above and beyond this weekend. This was a difficult time. It was my first birthday without my mom. My last memory of my mom is from my birthday last year. My Dad Facetimed me from my mom’s hospital room. He stood by her as she lay there, propped up in her hospital bed as they sang Happy Birthday to me. She passed away days later. So, my birthday not only reminds me of my last memory of her but also that the anniversary of her passing is coming up. You can imagine that must be difficult.
The day was hard, I spent most of the day in good spirits, all due to the work of Fletch. He kept me busy, took me to do whatever I wanted, and treated me like a queen. I have no idea how I got so lucky to have him in my life. He is not only my partner but my best friend. Fletch is an amazing individual who always puts others before himself. Right now, as I write this, he is in his office working. He’ll stay up late finishing up things because he spent the whole weekend doing whatever I wanted.
I love that man so much.