I spent this entire weekend spending quality time with friends and family. This (the time I’m spending to write this post) is the first time all weekend I’ve taken time to sit and be on my computer for a long period of time. It’s been so nice devoting my time to just being in the moment. After my mom passed two years ago I made it a point to put the people in my life before my blog and hobbies. In the past, I would put off spending time with people so I could blog. I now still enjoy blogging but definitely make sure I put my relationships first.
While I’ve enjoyed my weekend I will admit that it’s been a little difficult emotionally. This weekend I’ve had several moments that brought up the difficulty of losing my Mom. On Friday evening I found a voicemail my Mom left me after we moved into our last place, a rental house. She said how proud she was of us and how she was excited to see how we decorate. It’s been really difficult not having her around now that we’ve purchased our first home. Hearing that message now was almost like she was commenting on our new home. It was both reassuring but also sad, knowing she isn’t here to share such a big life moment.
Saturday afternoon I found a video of my Mom from when she was in the hospital. At the time we weren’t sure if she was going to make it so all of my siblings came together to see her. The video was of my brothers singing to her. Seeing her in that hospital was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. Watching the video put me right back in that place again.
While it may have been difficult hearing and seeing my Mom again, I’m so thankful I have voicemails and videos of her. They’re great reminders of what’s really important in life. What matters most are the people we love and spreading kindness. That was always my Mom’s priority and making sure I put others first is a great way to honor her memory.
So yeah, it’s been a great, though emotional, awesome weekend. This weekend I’m going to dinner with Fletch and my Dad then taking it easy for the rest of the night.
What have you been up to?