This February has already been a whirlwind. It’s nearly Valentine’s Day which means it’s really close to our closing date on our new house AND it’s almost my birthday. So much coming up!!! February has been both exciting and overwhelming. Most nights have been filled with packing, which is not as exciting but necessary.
February for me is a tough time of the year. My birthday falls just a few days before the anniversary of my Mom passing and last year’s birthday celebration was not as much as a distraction as I hoped. Last year was really hard and I had hoped that I’d be able to do something special this year. As you can imagine with our closing schedule that isn’t necessarily possible. Yes, buying a house is exciting but I’m also reminded of the fact that I don’t get to share that excitement with my Mom.
I’ve been telling myself for years that I need to not have huge expectations and to appreciate what I have. This year I really need to drive that home. I have so many good things in my life. Fletch and I are buying a freaking house! WHAT?! That’s insane! My wonderful friends are taking time out of their busy schedules to help us move which is super-sweet. I have a job that can be flexible so I can make sure that I can make any house related appointments. I have an adorable dog that cuddles me every night. I’m very lucky and regardless of what happens for my birthday that doesn’t change.
So yes, this month isn’t exactly what I expected and that’s alright. It will be amazing no matter what because I will be with the ones I love.
Do you ever struggle with expectations or learning to appreciate the here and now? How do you handle it?