It is Sunday, the day after Saturday, and I’ve been sitting at my laptop for two hours trying to decide what to write about for today’s Sunday inspirational post. I wasn’t really sure what to write about. First I thought it would be interesting to chat about getting out of your comfort zone, then I thought maybe I’d talk about finding new friends, but ultimately I wasn’t really feeling inspired by those topics. So, instead, I thought I’d talk about the fact that I feel uninspired, how inspiring, right?
Here is the thing, I have a weekly blogging schedule that I do my best to stick to. I have my Sunday inspirational post on Sundays, Mondays I share an outfit, and usually Wednesday I write something else. Whatever comes to me. Over the last months I’ve given myself more freedom to not always meet the deadlines I set for myself. You may notice that I am posting randomly throughout the day instead of first thing in the morning. That is because I am letting myself not stress over it anymore. I adore blogging. This is one of the only hobbies I’ve consistently done for a long period of time and I plan on continuing to do. Getting to know so many lovely, caring, kind, thoughtful people has opened my eyes to new possibilities.
After college life was hard. Most of my friends moved away and I had no idea how to meet new people. So, I started a blog. I wrote about film cameras hoping I would find like minded people. What sprung from that was a personal project that became a central focus of my then blog, Cutie Cameras. I would take a photo every single day of something that I found beauty and/or joy in. I was feeling down and lonely and I didn’t like where I was emotionally. I thought by forcing myself to seek out the positive it would allow me to see beyond the stupid qualms of everyday life and see the world in a new way. I took a photo every day for an entire year and I’ll be honest, it helped. I felt happier, more appreciative.
After what I called my 365 project I expanded my blog into more of a lifestyle theme. What you see now is the adaptation of my original blog. I’ve met people from all over the world who I now call my friends. People that care for me and enjoy my weird, silly, cutesie personality. Where am I going?
Well, I guess what I’m saying is that blogging has become such a huge source of my identity and yet, I always strive to be more. It wasn’t until after my Mom’s passing that I felt like maybe I shouldn’t put so much pressure on myself. I can blog as little or as much as I want/can and be alright with that. I don’t want to miss out on experiences and moments with Fletch or with friends. I always have a screen in front of my face and by relieving some of the pressure I put on myself for SO long I feel like I can put down the phone, iPad, laptop and just focus on the moment.
So now, with the rest of the night, I plan on having a scrumptious dinner with Fletch and maybe watching a movie. The last few weeks have been a bit harder (I’ve been pretty emotional) and I felt like I really needed a day to just rest. Tonight I shall give myself some time to do whatever the heck I want and I will be back tomorrow with another super-cute outfit post. Now for the semi-inspiring piece. Don’t do what I did. Don’t pressure yourself or make yourself feel bad because you didn’t meet a deadline or get something done. You have time to do it later. Just enjoy the now. Hug your loved ones a little longer and take that hour to go for a walk with your friends. Life can be over in the blink of an eye and you don’t want to look back wishing you had spent more quality time living.
Love you all!!!